11 Dec Letter to D (2)
Do you know that, the symptoms of feeling nervous are actually the same with the symptoms of feeling excited?
When you’re nervous, you’re more likely to experience panic and uneasiness. You couldn’t sleep all night, couldn’t keep your calm. Your hands feel cold, sweaty, and tingling. Your heart beats faster than usual. Sometimes, you also feel nausea and stomachache. You’re nervous. But the thing is, all these physical signs also appear when you’re excited about something. So really, your body shows all the same signs, but your brain decide whether you’re nervous or excited.
I remember that fun tidbit. Because right now I’m experiencing it all. I’m eating in KFC – chewing my favorite Twisty (that gets thinner and thinner every year, I noticed) – but my tummy is grumbling. I couldn’t stop tingling my feet and I NEED to write these thoughts down because otherwise, my hands will get cold.
I think about you these past couple weeks. The big day is finally here and I would love to tell everything that happened to you. I know that you will not calm me down. Instead, you will tell me to embrace this new step and excite myself in the unknown part of life plan. That’s funny, right? When we’re adults, we can actually do everything that we want to do since we’re kids. But, all the bitter experiences and rejections make us hold ourselves. We become more worried and anxious to take even a small step outside our comfort zone. Oh, how I love being a worry-free kid again!
Dear D, wish me luck, alright?
I’m doing this to make you proud.
And to quote the song,
It's been a long day without you, my friend
And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again
We've come a long way from where we began
Oh I'll tell you all about it when I see you again
Okay, D, I gotta go. Because I swear this lady staff just subtly ask me to leave by cleaning up my desk when I’m not even finished eating. Can you believe it?
Talk to you later, D!