That split second where your eyes just opened
Maybe because of the alarm or your body just stops sleeping
Sometimes I don’t want to wake up
I keep my eyes shut for a couple minutes
Trying so hard to get back to sleep again
To be numb
Sometimes I don’t want to wake up
I keep asking to myself, “What’s the point?”
The world is just a tiny dot in a galaxy
I work day and night, looking at screen non-stop
Hoping that someday, it all stops
And we all have the sum of money we all dream of
But dear, it’s never enough
Sometimes I don’t want to wake up
In my dreams, you still exist
And you still make me laugh
And you’re always one-call away
Whether it’s a storm, blackout, dawn or sunset
I can hear your voice and suddenly,
the world is okay again
Sometimes I don’t want to wake up
I’m tired of faking a smile
Tired of eating
Tired of watching TV
Tired of being reminded of you
By that cute photo we took on our peak day
By those songs we fall asleep to
Sometimes I don’t want to wake up
Because I can feel the ache.
And it hurts.
You can’t see it but it hurts.
Like stepping on a Lego piece. But 100 times worse.
Sometimes I don’t want to wake up.
I want to keep sleeping.
I want to still be able to see you.
I want to be your hero.
Sometimes I don’t want to wake up.
Because I don’t want to live in a world,
where there is no you.
