07 Aug The One when You Lost
Remember the last time I said I turned down a scholarship?
Well, karma is a bitch and it bites me in the ass.
I lost another scholarship opportunity, but this time, this time I really really wanted to get it. I picked a major that I am really passionate about. I gave my best, my 110% performance. I spent all my spare time to practice and basically prepare myself for every possible scenarios.
And yet, I failed.
The sound of Chris Martin’s song keeps ringing in my head.
“When you try your best but you don’t succeed.”
I don’t know what else to do. I don’t know what else to say. I feel like hitting a rock bottom.
All I want to do right now is lay on my bed and do nothing all day. To have your dream and be so close with it, then have that dream crushed in front of you is traumatizing experience.
The worst thing is, I lost faith in myself.
Even though there will be other scholarship opportunities, I feel like I won’t be good enough to get it, anyway.
Sorry for this ranting. I’m tired of crying. I just had to let it out of my system. Maybe writing will help.
Loser of the Year